Morality is futile??

 It has recently come to my awareness that in trusting others, I have vacated trusting myself, my principles and my values.  Somewhere in this harsh reality over the past several years, I have allowed others to tell me what is right and what will do for my life.  I don’t think the consequences of others abandoning me were so detrimental as that of me abandoning myself.  I have strong moral views, but was taught that morality is futile and always subject to interpretation and criticism.  While the latter part is true, having strong moral views is not futile.  I learned how to stop trusting myself by learning to trust others ahead of myself.  My mistakes caused me to shift power to those around me as I must have stopped trusting myself after the abortion.  It doesn’t matter who tells you something.  A boss, a therapist, a friend you have trusted for years or someone you just met.  Trusting your own judgement is so important in protecting yourself from the harsh reality others will subject you to if you allow them to control your interpretation of reality.  That’s over for me.  I have tried to stay open to people’s views, especially when they greatly differ from mine, but I no longer see it as positive to allow other’s views to affect mine in such a way.  I hope this helps someone else who may be struggling with some of the same.  More to come.